Does love have to be like a battle field?

I pretty much had a battle with God the other day about learning to retrain my thinking to not worrying about what other people think. I used to be like that — carefree, unworried, I do what I do who cares what people think — but somewhere along the line of the last couple of years that has changed. Its painful to admit. But I do get concerned about what people think and I hate that about myself. I wish I was bolder, more confident in who I am in Christ like I used to be. I’m trying to get back to that place, but once you’ve left its a difficult return — difficult to retrain your thinking to be that carefree.